Solitude

As suggested from many of our readings, I took some time for solitude. This ended up being a great time for God to help me come up with some ideas for my Master project. I do not think I quite have everything I need still, but it was beneficial to have this time with the Lord (as it always it).

That being said, my time of solitude did not last very long. Sure I came up with one project idea out of it, but I believe God wants more from me. Then, on Saturday, I had a migraine. Now, migraines can be very painful and cause me to go to a place of solitude because that is how I deal with the pain. I believe God was able to use this migraine to bring me into the solitude He wants to have with me.

When in the toughest part of the migraine, I always find myself praying to the Lord. Sometimes I am begging for him to not let me die! Other times, however, it is actually a good chance for God to speak to me. This is because I am in solitude and there is no where else I can turn. Thank you Lord for speaking to me in my mandated solitude state!

I am glad that in the midst of terrible pain it is Christ whom I turn too. I pray this is the case with everything in my life. However, it does not always play out the same way. God, you are good. Thank you for all you do for me.

The Peace in the Chaos

After we came back from face to face, it has taken me a long time to get back into a rhythm of school work. The day after I returned I found out that I will be let go at my job because they can no longer afford to keep me. My wife is seven months pregnant, and will not be able to work for a while after the delivery. This is stressful.

It is almost Christmas time and this means a very busy season for me at the church. This year we are producing "A Charlie Brown Christmas." This means not only choir responsibilities, but building sets, and directing kids. On top of that, we are currently without a youth pastor. Cairistiona and I have stepped up to help fill the role while the church searches for the next youth pastor. One work: Chaos.

As I was leaving PREP the day I was let go, a peace came over me. I can only explain it as a peace that surpasses understanding. I should be freaking out (trust me I do have my moments). However, for the most part I have felt a calmness in my spirit. This is nothing else accept a gift of God's grace. There are reasons to be upset with PREP, but I am not. God is doing something new, and it is a privilege to have the opportunity to ride with Him.

I trust you Lord. I pray you will take care of my family. Glory be to you forever and ever...