Desperation

God has a way if bringing us to the edge, have us look over, dangle for a bit, until we find ourselves in such desperation that we realize we are nothing without him.

I have been a pastor only three months, and their are still times when I thnk to myself, "I got this."  Well, no I don't. God rremobded me again this week that I am nothing without him. Apart from thin I can do nothing. 

I am thankful for times if desperation. Those moments when we realizes, I can do this, but I know who can. I am thankful that when I cry our to my Heavenly Father, He is faithful to respond. 

Thank you Lord for being so gracious to me. I don't deserve it. I am thankful for your love. And thankful that you always show up in my desperation for you. 

Overwhelmed

Dave  sent out a letter yesterday with all of our assignments on it for the net two weeks. Honestly, thi feels completely overwhelming. Two 10 page power. Read two book. Write two smaller papers. Work on the capstone project. Plus write a sermon. Plus be a pastor. Yikes!!!

It really stresses me out. Nd I am still learning to deal with stress effectively.a lot of times stress will push me to act in a terrible manner. I get short with people and snappy. Especially with my wife. I not like that person. I don't want to be that guy. 

So what do I do? I have to do the work. I have it fit it in to my buy life schedule. I know I am not a lone in it, but that does not make it all that much easier. 

Lord help me. I need help dealing with stress. I need help with time management. I need help to get thi work done. Amen.