The Walls are Closing In

I think its about time that I write a little bit about what I am feeling, and not so much about the new knowledge that God is teaching me. These, however, have the potential to coincide. But, I am not seeking to write about what God is necessarily teaching me, but simply express what I am feeling in my inner being.

I am a little lost. I don't understand really anything that is going on in my life. A month a go I was let go from my job, and this month my wife was let go from her job. Our baby is due in a few weeks. Our church feels very unstable, and I am not sure how many years longer it will actually last. God of course can turn this all around, but at the moment it feels like the walls are closing in, and we have no ware to go.

I keep having this image in my mind when the star wars characters are stuck in the trash shoot and the walls are closing in. Luke keeps trying to put something in the way to stop the walls but nothing is working. I have applied to a few jobs, but they have all bent. The walls keep closing in.

Where is God leading us? Why have we lost our jobs? What is going on at the church I have served at for the last three years? Where is God leading us to be? Do I faith? Sure I do. But where am I headed, Lord? I am completely dependent on You. yet I do not have even the slightest sense of where you want me to be.

It has been less than a year since we moved into our house. I'd rather not have to move again. Especially with the baby coming so soon. But, whatever you want to do God I am ready to follow. I just am asking for a little clue for the direction you want me to go. I trust you, Lord.